Alonetic

     Days are looping, mimicking one another

     I am still living, longing,yearning, and aching;

     I rip my soul apart, my body rips open, and I fall through the air,

     I  walk backwards, I wake up in the wrong bed and I walk down the ceiling,

     I leap out of the window, falling through the sky lines,

     Till my feet touch the ground, back in time.

     I fall back into the sky; I have now closed my eyes,

     Here is where I belong; I missed the old days, the memories left behind.

     Where you and I, back in time; and this is why, here, is where I must die.

     A growing new me, alonetic ; without you.

The skeptical pendulum

Dad used to say..”life is a long high road..and  every day is a mile marker..and you have to utilize everyday"..dad was right..But I think if you don't slow down occasionally,you'll miss what each mile has to offer..but there's also a flip side to that, sometimes you can stuck in a wrong "mile" and find yourself in the loop of most awful road imaginable..sometimes a "mile" defines a life.. small or big..sometimes all it takes one turn..to make a life whole different one..I don't know where was the biggest wrong turn i made,but it seems like I took quite few of them ..

 When I was a child i thought being brave meant that you had to take action,.that to have a dream or get forward in life you need courage.but now, I think the only thing u need courage is for standing still,..for your dreams and your beliefs...but I never really aware of my own individuality, always got caught in between the views of others.. I guess now it's the right time for me to stand, to justify myself and my own individuality..

The last two months have been nothing short of a nightmare.But thankfully I can see the end of it is near..when you face the worst, it can only gets better..when everything seems to fall apart around me but I never really failed to hope that a column might be out there somewhere.
I always try to believe that everything happens for a good reason....and i just have to stop looking back..cause i know,

       "when you face the sun,the shadows always fall behind you….."