It’s Friday, friday doesn't seem like "funday " anymore. No different today, woke up with lazy head and saw morning has wet cheeks.....rain is trying to act familiar after a shinny yesterday...it’s storm outside,electric pulse is controlling the sky!...A flash outside brings me back to life from my splitting headache and my ears are washed with the sound of wet rain.The black sky outside is exploding into blinding purples,the streaks of white light traveling across miles tearing the horizon apart..
My lazy feet walk towards the open window, wetting their soles near the window pane, the water droplets; wetting my hair, my hands and body, I feel peace,.my eyes start to open wide and I can see the images in the distance with a glow settled on them..I look up at the screaming sky and got a bit scared; the flickering thunder and thrashing wind. The pendulum timekeeper declares the time 7.50 am. i overlooked it as if I missed an hour in counting. Rains pounding like merciless critics..I came to bed again and got my lazy comfort..discussions becoming sentimental controversies with myself and my brain.. window gets upset over my loud thinking and a restless wind whistles, windows creak. then i got up again..the clouds collide into an angry thunder clap as I turned my PC monitor on, the machine was on since yesterday, had some utorrent downloading to complete .Rain brought some audible letters, but the words are pouring out on my cluttered mind ,looking for pages to write on,my fingers wrinkled, I want to write page after pages on MS words. But instead I turned the soundtrack on,avoiding the long tale inside me...I call it my individuality....or my fragility.....have I ever prioritize the things in order? never!!
Possibility of self-mistrust multiplying...some days words mirror my feelings, some days silence..I'm observing my own silence now.... Music is flooding the spirits and the rain upsetting the rhythm.....the playlist shuffling with chosen Hans zimmer’s movie soundtracks..music is soothing the thoughts as if I finally got the relief from the grief poking for years...the knock from the door..coffee cup is ready now, I took it, coffee is wrapping me with slickly seducing ideas. I went to the table, the long “to do list” waiting to be melted...waiting to be loved and cared…who cares!! mind got something to get lost into.!
Morning merging seamlessly with me.... time to upgrade desires…Sometimes these primitive emotions forget the art of repeated life, I feel like a tangent to this universe! I never understand people in it! I understand nature, the beauty in it, the rain of it!
My lazy feet walk towards the open window, wetting their soles near the window pane, the water droplets; wetting my hair, my hands and body, I feel peace,.my eyes start to open wide and I can see the images in the distance with a glow settled on them..I look up at the screaming sky and got a bit scared; the flickering thunder and thrashing wind. The pendulum timekeeper declares the time 7.50 am. i overlooked it as if I missed an hour in counting. Rains pounding like merciless critics..I came to bed again and got my lazy comfort..discussions becoming sentimental controversies with myself and my brain.. window gets upset over my loud thinking and a restless wind whistles, windows creak. then i got up again..the clouds collide into an angry thunder clap as I turned my PC monitor on, the machine was on since yesterday, had some utorrent downloading to complete .Rain brought some audible letters, but the words are pouring out on my cluttered mind ,looking for pages to write on,my fingers wrinkled, I want to write page after pages on MS words. But instead I turned the soundtrack on,avoiding the long tale inside me...I call it my individuality....or my fragility.....have I ever prioritize the things in order? never!!
Possibility of self-mistrust multiplying...some days words mirror my feelings, some days silence..I'm observing my own silence now.... Music is flooding the spirits and the rain upsetting the rhythm.....the playlist shuffling with chosen Hans zimmer’s movie soundtracks..music is soothing the thoughts as if I finally got the relief from the grief poking for years...the knock from the door..coffee cup is ready now, I took it, coffee is wrapping me with slickly seducing ideas. I went to the table, the long “to do list” waiting to be melted...waiting to be loved and cared…who cares!! mind got something to get lost into.!
Morning merging seamlessly with me.... time to upgrade desires…Sometimes these primitive emotions forget the art of repeated life, I feel like a tangent to this universe! I never understand people in it! I understand nature, the beauty in it, the rain of it!
A cold breeze penetrates my being and envelopes my lungs to replace the squalor with peace and cleanses me..thoughts are in stillness, but it feels good.
How do you write this kind of writing? very impressive.
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ReplyDeleteSeriously...genius...you write really good...i feel inspired!
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