I left home smiling with anticipations and excitements. and
then the dream came true. It was much more than I ever imagined..something to cherish for rest of my life..then came the
departure, It was all well planned, but it felt like my temple of love was
demolished by some monstrous fate and I couldn't do anything. A large chunk of
my peace of mind was going, leaving, fading with her departure., a huge
part of me had died.
It was early morning, and it was
raining;I was coming back without you, saddened and depressed..every micro moment seemed like the biggest-tragedy, time stood still....emotions were desperate to climb on your memories...i couldn't take any longer there, then I went out .. as I began to walk, the
rain started pouring down heavier this time..involving me, surrounding me, drowning me.,
the same road we walked together seemed so unfamiliar … I tried to
cheat my emotions with the hope and dreams, but they were poised somewhere else....
I opened my eyes after sleepless night.. after switching my
talking alarm clock off. I was coming back with a grieving heart.....I
was trying to keep myself busy with the airlines movie storage,flicking through
channel after channel, but my heart was glued on you and I couldn't think of
anything else… I understood that the hollowness I was carrying with me would
never go away easily.
Home didn't feel like home after then.never thought it could be this painful.., This
may sound so filmy but ..there’s no other way to put it...
Food lost its taste.sleep had enough of me and wouldn't give me time.,my
brain seemed never tired of your loud thinking..felt like I was recovering from a drug
addiction. I was so in love and I felt like you had gone,even though I knew It’s just temporary..but it
was so hard to accept that you are gone,.and I wont be able to hold you for a year
or so. , i promised to turn into a tougher guy but the emotions never stopped
following me.. soul never felt in me after then, felt always half short.. Departure is the worst invention ever..But I know we
can’t be apart,...I still can see the beauty in the sadness, it makes me grateful that I
am fortunate enough to have someone like you in my life. It’s not the end, it’s
just the beginning .., The way you held my hand, the way you always looked at
me intently. I know we are meant to be together, everything will turn
out the way we planned..now I can put
all my smiles and happiness on starvation mode for awhile..i can wait , the
wait is worth everything... Time to draw in my sails...till the next favorable
wind..till we meet...!